I'm actually very tired now, but a comment by an Anonymous really encourages me..
yet I've alot of questions surrounding my mind..

Firstly, saying is always easiler than done.
Have you been in my shoes?
Do you understand how I truely feels?

Secondly, what's is your definition of "GreaT Family"?
what you might experience as a Great family is not what I've encounter or felt.

For me, perhaps I set my standards too high..
that's y I dont feel the way you do, i guess..

Here are some encounters that I had, to support my stand & my opinions..
People in FCBC are quite selfish, self centred..
(not a general comment nor an assumption but what I truely feel)
Currently, I'm going on a mission trip with campus crusade, but apart from the $100 that CheeAik, someone in church gave me.. Not many responded although I did inform ppl that I'm going on this trip and I seriously lacks the funding of over $1000.

Another simple example is how many people will bother about others?
I've been struggling about church and all, yet I dont hear anyone asking
"how are you doing, I've not seen you in church.. can we meet up and just chat?"

I can have a spiritual aunty sitting beside me, apart from words such as "god bless you" which pastor ask the church to say it to the person on ur left n right.. We can just walk out of the church without saying a word after the service.

Is this a great family?
where is concern? where is care?
where have simple acts of kindness, and love been to?
I thought that christians are to live life supernaturally, to love your neighbour as yourself?
As I talk to my cell leader, and cell leader's leader..
The feedback I got is "as you grow mutual spiritually, you are becoming more and more demanding"

Demanding? what a word..
Ya, I'm demanding, asking for too much..
childish, immatual, not understanding, unreasonable, etc etc.
Thanks!! I'll keep all these in mind..
(in all things give thanks rmb?) haHa.

Actually, I wanted to blog about my opinions on a comment posted by my friend based on my pervious blog on "Leader. Leader."

However, one of my friend confronted me..
I never thought that it would be an issue to meet up with him, him handling my mission trip funding (which he had agreed to help me with) over to me..

Yet it was a big issue as there was firstly miscommunication..
Then a series of assumptions..
I guess it was also my character - too insensitive to others,
joking manner n tone, style, personality etc. that caused this big disagreement..
But I'm thankful that he was ok already..
I kept apologising like mad.. yups. HaHa.

Through this, I learn alot tOo..
Firstly to really forgive when you are angry coz the person is already appologic..
(this can be seen in his/her sincerity de.. like me keep apologising etc)

Next is to be more sensitive to others..
To me, I guess I wont be toO bother about what others think or feel after I say something
cOz I'm just entitled to what I say (freedom of speech!!) and my opinions..
Everyone of us will think differently, have different reaction..
Some might like what you do, how you say things..
While others will detest you..

Just like when Jesus died on the cross, not everyone agreed with him..
Some people even think that it's a shame, an embarressment, something silly etc.
But he did what was right, despite of all opinions..
To me, as long as I walk right, do what I am suppose to do - Punture etc.
Of course always listening and learning from others
coz I'm not perfect also..
All I can do, is to become better each day as time pass.. yups!! =)

Ps. Jimmy, if I'm able to blog it out, I'm not afriad that she will see it..
Nor any negative comment that readers will post..
This is what I think, how I feel, who I am..!!
U might not agree with me, but this is who I am..! yups.
take it or left it.. haHa.