I'm actually very tired now, but a comment by an Anonymous really encourages me..
yet I've alot of questions surrounding my mind..

Firstly, saying is always easiler than done.
Have you been in my shoes?
Do you understand how I truely feels?

Secondly, what's is your definition of "GreaT Family"?
what you might experience as a Great family is not what I've encounter or felt.

For me, perhaps I set my standards too high..
that's y I dont feel the way you do, i guess..

Here are some encounters that I had, to support my stand & my opinions..
People in FCBC are quite selfish, self centred..
(not a general comment nor an assumption but what I truely feel)
Currently, I'm going on a mission trip with campus crusade, but apart from the $100 that CheeAik, someone in church gave me.. Not many responded although I did inform ppl that I'm going on this trip and I seriously lacks the funding of over $1000.

Another simple example is how many people will bother about others?
I've been struggling about church and all, yet I dont hear anyone asking
"how are you doing, I've not seen you in church.. can we meet up and just chat?"

I can have a spiritual aunty sitting beside me, apart from words such as "god bless you" which pastor ask the church to say it to the person on ur left n right.. We can just walk out of the church without saying a word after the service.

Is this a great family?
where is concern? where is care?
where have simple acts of kindness, and love been to?
I thought that christians are to live life supernaturally, to love your neighbour as yourself?
As I talk to my cell leader, and cell leader's leader..
The feedback I got is "as you grow mutual spiritually, you are becoming more and more demanding"

Demanding? what a word..
Ya, I'm demanding, asking for too much..
childish, immatual, not understanding, unreasonable, etc etc.
Thanks!! I'll keep all these in mind..
(in all things give thanks rmb?) haHa.