Indeed as I struggle through family issues & probems, there was someone that I could relay upon..

He is no other than my best friend, my heaven father God himself.. (hey, I know you people think that I am kind of crazy.. But I'm NOT!) God really do exist! He really really really really really love us!

How should I put it in the way that a non-believer would understand me? Sometimes I really feel like an alien from outer space.. Trying to tell people something which is Truth, nothing but the truth itself..

Yet.. I was wronged by many - my good friend was keen in a gal, yet the gal thought that there was something between us ..!?! I tried reaching out to a guy friend and he kept asking me as if I was interested in him! (I wish I can faint immediately..) How many of us know that the love & strength to love people, do not come from human alone, but from God himself. I am merely a vessel for God to transmitt his love for people on earth.. Without God, I am just any other someone you might know..

I hope this clarify any doubts, I have no intention to hurt anyone.. No intention to cheat anyone's feeling or whatsoever.. I just hope people will come, experience God's love & believe in him one day.. Going a step further will be to do his work, because you love God, because you have experienced his grace & love..

I cried.. It was tough.. Really tough!!
Why isit me? God, why me?!?

Recently, I'm carrying the burdens of my family (the Entire Family!)
ME? A yet-to-turn 19 year old kid? How can I do it? How can I take care of my parents when both of them just couldN'T agree? Who can I turn to? Who can I talk to? Who can I share my burdens with? (Apart from GOD)

I wish there's a role model for me.. Someone to teach & guide me.. To tell me what to do.. IF there's just a shoulder for me to lend / cry on.. Just someone I can trust, totally totally trust & share my burdens..

Do that someone exist? I just want to LOL.. Who will bother? Who will care? How naive am I.. 19 year old gal, wake up! wake up! wake up..!