Today's mood is so down.. Coming to 20, and I am at my cross road... Recently, I've been troubled with no boyfriend issue & my upcoming future, which my parents keep bothering me about:

What do I want to do? I keep asking myself . . .
What would be the best for me? How would God lead me?
Will I ever have a boyfriend, or would I be covered under the shadow of my parents' failed marriage? Would I even have the trust to believe guys?

Did he & I were even together? Perhaps I just thought too much, and it was mere friendship. . . Perhaps it didnt even started, it was just fun, that's why ~
We were just kids, unmatured & no burdens . . .

Maybe, maybe, maybe it is time that we split . . . Yet,I am not willing!
He's like a friend to me, someone I can talk to . . .
A brother, a teacher, a lover . . .
He's just different, however there's no progress which made me very tired as well.
Want to give up, want to just abandoned him & walk away . . . yups.

This year, my Chinese New celebration was a 3 day thing..
First day was visitation by my uncles, aunties & cousin...
Follow by my grandmother & 2nd aunt's place on the following day.
Last was my cellgroup steamboaT! (The most happening! hehe)

It was as if I had three families.. So sweet! heheS.


Now with ShiQi taking up new challenges of the Lord, back in China soon..
We now have a Father - Aroan, to take up the new responsibility of the cellgroup.(Oops, no picture of him - To be put up soon.)





We had lots of fun & laughter that night, finding out Aroan's Chinese name can be directly translated to "Do experiment" and the 2 guys in front of me actually have "something on betweeon them".. hehe.

After awhile, honestly it's really nice to be single, with such a supportive family with me.. I'm so blessed! hehe.

A year has passed with the approaching of Chinese New Year & Valentine Day...
Seeing the advertisments of couples exchanging gifts, express of love...
Truely I begin to envy... How I wish I have a BF too..

Lonely lonely Valentine Day... Wa~
Many pursers yet none was strong, firm enough to melt my heart..
How fast, this year I will be turning 20...

Another year older, another year of challenge...
2008, another year installed for me to work for, dream about...

Perhaps, still the same girl...